Friday Fragments

Friday Fragments?

Welcome to Friday Fragments, brought to you by Mrs.4444.  It offers a chance to jot down all your random thoughts for the week in one post, which is especially beneficial for people like me who have a LOT of random thoughts floating through the old noggin at any given time.

***You all might recall my scorn some time back regarding the hysteria about the swine flu.  I should know better than to say anything about stuff like that, because I think I jinxed myself.  Sam is now stricken with what his doctor believes is the dreaded H1N1 virus.  she is starting him on the Tamiflu today, as well as prescribing the usual treatments-lots of liquids, Tylenol and/or Ibuprofen for the fever, and lots of rest.  Of course, his asthma is particularly awful right now, so he has been taking breathing treatments every two hours.  If any of you are at all familiar with those particular drugs, they are like speed.  So the kid is ill, but the drugs make him feel like he can move mountains-not a good combination.  Send up good thoughts.  I am not an alarmist by any means, but the lurking specter of things like pneumonia and secondary bacterial infections  looms in the back of my mind.  Such is life with one of those pesky high-risk kids.

***There is something wrong with my feed thingy so that my posts aren’t showing up in people’s readers.  I don’t know how to fix it.  This is NOT good for a terminally insecure person such as myself.  I posted on Wednesday and got three comments-THREE!-so of course was filled with angst because I was sure I was being blackballed for some faux pas and was equally sure that I should just take down the whole blog because nobody likes me.  I think I am perhaps a liiiitle mentally ill, what do you think?

***Stay at home moms (the normal kind, not the ones who compulsively exercise or start drinking at noon or shop-a lot-) really amaze me.  As in, how do you stay home with your kids all day, every day, and not go insane?  I love my kids so much that it hurts, and it was hard having to take them all to daycare when they were babies and toddlers.  Even now, when Owen waked up in an especially sweet mood or if I am feeling a little down, I would love to not have to go to work.  However, I simply do not have it in me to be a stay at home mom.  like I said, I love my kids to distraction, but I also really, really like going to work and being with adults I mostly really enjoy.  I used to feel guilty because I didn’t really WANT to be a stay-at-home mom, but now I just accept that I am a far better parent if I work.

***You all remember me writing about my friend M. who died some months ago, right?  I ran into his girlfriend last night.  Literally; we were in line together at the store last night and she turned around as I was stepping forward and we ran into each other.  She looked up and said excuse me, then looked again and simply burst into tears and grabbed onto me.  I didn’t know what to do; I know her, both from work and from when she used to be in the program, but it would be a stretch to say that we were ever friends.  So I did the only thing I could think of, which was to hold on to her and kiss her head while she was crying.  I know it sounds silly on paper, but it wasn’t.  She has gone through so much this last year-and no, M.’s death wasn’t even the worst of it (there is a whole backstory to it that I simply can’t share because it is too personal.  Not to ME, but to her.  One thing I will share is that for a variety of reasons, she wasn’t even able to go to his funeral and have that small bit of closure.  Her choices led her to that, but it doesn’t make it any less heartbreaking).  I haven’t seen her for a long time, so maybe that is why the downward spiral that is her life was so obvious to me.  She is still out there, drinking and using, and I just-I don’t know.  I think she had the emotional reaction she did simply because she knows me from the program and was ashamed and embarrassed and in a lot of emotional pain.  My heart is broken for her.

***Hannah just got her progress report from school.  They are halfway through the second session of school, and she has A’s in both classes.  Her GPA is now a whopping 3.6.  Her grades are wonderful, but even more wonderful is the fact that for the first time, she is really excited about it.  She could hardly wait to show me the printout, and also showed Steve immediately upon him getting into the car last night.  She is growing so much, internally, that I am in awe of the difference in her.

***Speaking of growing, Owen has suddenly shot up and his pants all look like highwaters.  If it wasn’t so stinking cute, IU would be chagrined, but instead I just have to look at him and laugh.  Time to go shopping, though.

For more wonderful Friday Fragments, head on over to see Mrs.4444 and the other participants.  We are nothing if not entertaining!



20 thoughts on “Friday Fragments

  1. You better not close down your blog….I will be upset! We love you and your blog and there must be something wrong with your reader because I highly doubt people would just up and stop reading!

    Ideally, I think I would love to be a stay at home mom but I also know that I would probably get bored after awhile. I guess I don’t need to cross that bridge until we have a baby to cross it with and at this point I don’t really think that’s going to happen.

    Yay for Hannah!!! That is awesome! I know you are so proud of her and most importantly she is proud of herself! Self-esteem is so important and I’m glad to hear that hers is on the rise.

    Awww, your baby’s growing up! Highwaters are only acceptable on toddlers! haha!

    Hope you have a fantastic weekend!

  2. Now I feel like a jerk because I saw on your last post that you only had one comment, from April, for at least a day. I was wondering what was up! But yeah, I didn’t have anything worthy to say, so I didn’t comment! Well now I know better.


    I’ll definitely pray for Sam and his health – and the health of the whole family.

    Thank you for being so loving and caring and understanding. – in case M’s gf didn’t say it… it needs to be said. 🙂

  3. Oof, sorry about your flu situation.
    Sorry you were filled with angst Wed! I kept checking my feeder but only checked the site when I saw you on the Friday Fragment list and alas, here you are.
    I used to think that I couldn’t be a SAHM, but now that Boy’s getting more interactive, I think I would love it. But I would have to do some kind of part-time daycare, because I would never get anything done while he was home.
    Gooooooooooooooo Hannah!!
    .-= Cat´s last blog ..Friday Fragments =-.

  4. I never in my wildest dreams would have imagined that I would stay home with my child. I take care of her all day 6 days a week and can I tell you that the one day a week that I leave the house to go to work I feel like I am on vacation. Oh, just to be able to talk to adults or go to the bathroom is bliss. It goes without saying that I love my daughter, but I need breaks or I will go batty.
    .-= Unknown Mami´s last blog ..Fragmented Fridays =-.

  5. What? You shut down your blog? If so, I’m glad you came to your senses! 🙂

    My kids both grew so much, so quickly, that they have stretch marks on their thighs. Kendall passed me up this month in height. And of course, Kyle is 6’2″ now. Scary.

    Poor little Sam! I hope he’s feeling better now. I will keep him in my prayers.

    Yea, Hannah! Hey, I never read anything about Hannah’s response to the letters written to her. Did you write a post about that, that I missed?

    Wow-That woman’s story–so sad. Watching other people self-destruct is hard. The humanity of your reaching back in that moment touched me.
    .-= Mrs4444´s last blog ..Sundays in My City/Weekly Winners =-.

  6. Hope Sam is feeling MUCH better ~ and congrats to Hannah!
    I was a SAHM for six weeks. It.was.brutal. (yep, selfish me wanted to talk to the Big People at work on occasion…)
    Glad to re-find you after the reader thing fiasco, now let’s see if the comments thing is working!

  7. My cousin has asthma too and ended up getting pneomonia (well a touch of pneumonia- whatever that means) Hope they get to feeling better and that it doesn’t go around. I did get to stay at home with Jayson for a year anyway. I think it would be easier for me to do it when he’s in school b/c then I would at least have a little time to myself.

  8. Oops got cutoff. I also wanted to say that it’s so AWESOME Hannah is not onlt getting good grades but psyched about it 🙂

  9. Highwaters on a little guy is cute as long as they go around. To save money you could go to the fabric store and get some of that cute wide ribbon and sew it on the bottoms. Then you might be able to skip a size.

    • @Linda, Snicker snicker, as if I can sew….though I have seen some pants like that, and can’t imagine it would be too hard; can you imagine how cute his little jeans would be with some plaid flannel stitched around hte bottom? Hmmm, I think even I could manage that.

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