The Friday Fragments brain dump. Brought to you by Mrs.4444 at Half Past Kissin’ time.
***My blog got hacked (again), and none of my posts are showing up in anyone’s readers (again). This is a terrible thing to happen to someone like me, because I have zero traffic and of course I worry that all of a sudden people have decided I suck after all. I don’t have any idea why anyone would continually hack into my blog; it isn’t as if I am a popular one. Worst, I have two people WAY more talented than me trying to fix it, and so far, no luck. So to save my fragile psyche, would some of you, you know, come directly to my blog occasionally to let me know I am not just writing into the void?
***I think it is just because she was so slender to start with, but man, Hannah REALLY looks pregnant these days, alarmingly so. If she already looks huge, I can’t even begin to imagine how she is going to look in another couple of months.
***Speaking of Hannah being pregnant, she has already been making arrangements and talking to people at school and all on her own decided she is going to summer school and will take an online course when she is home with the baby so as to stay caught up. If all goes well, not only is she going to graduate, she might even be on track to graduate early. She has also had to deal with several billing issues for the lab work, and handled them well. She talked to a counselor yesterday and will meet up with her again in a couple of weeks, and after that we will have some resources for counseling to help her deal with some underlying issues; maybe she is going to be all right after all.
***Eli now has his official Learner’s Permit in hand, so he has been shuttling me around everywhere. Yesterday I forgot my coffee cup so we had to go back to the house to get it (uh, yeah. I am SO not going in to work without my own travel mug of my own brew, seeing how I am such a coffee snob and all), so I ended up being late for work-he has a hard time getting up to speed, you see. But he is actually doing very well, and he had to parallel park in front of the house last night and totally nailed it the first time. Which is more than I can say; I will actually park a block away and walk somewhere to avoid it.
***Speaking of walking, our morning walks have been curtailed abruptly due to weather. Now, I will walk in a light rain, and I will walk when it is bitterly cold, and even when there is snow on the ground. However, when the wind id blowing 35 miles an hour and it is 35 degrees and a rain and snow mix, um, no thanks. I am not that dedicated to anything. Hopefully it will start to abate so we can start up again; I have been enjoying those mornings with just Hannah, Eli and the dogs.
***It should be no surprise to anyone that Sam’s dad has quit emailing Sam entirely. Last week (or a little longer), he had his WIFE tell Sam that he thought email was too impersonal and tried to manipulate Sam and I both into letting him call him instead, which clearly didn’t work. Sam wasn’t ready, and frankly neither was I; it didn’t take very long for his dad to have his wife email instead, maybe two weeks? and while it was okay at first because his dad is on the road for work, it soon became clear that he had no intention of making any real effort. And that was the deal-he was going to email Sam every time Sam emailed him, he was going to accept that Sam has some really intense feelings of anger and abandonment toward him, and he said he could and would deal with that. The first time Sam questioned his trustworthiness was the last time he emailed. Needless to say, Sam is broken hearted all over again.
***In AA, we are taught to pray for those with whom we are angry or resentful-not to help them, mind you, but to free ourselves from those feelings. And it really does work, I can attest to that. I told Sam about that last night and asked if he thought maybe we should pray for his dad, and he looked at me as if I had grown a third eye.
***Owen grew almost three inches since January. Seeing someone day to day it is hard to notice the changes, but suddenly a few pairs of his pants were getting to be high-waters and he just looked long and lean. Steve measured him against the wall (yes, we actually mark the wall with him and Sam’s name when we do that; are we geeks or what?) and sure enough, a huge growth spurt. Thankfully we have a bunch of jeans that are a size 4 that have been just a tad too long, but we are really going to have to do something about those “belly shirts.”
***Today will mark day two of taking my little blue pill; I felt really tired yesterday, but I am not sure if it was the pill or simply not sleeping as well as usual. I will take it again this morning and see what it does, and maybe I will have to start taking it at night. Whatever; at this point, I am just about desperate so what TIME I have to take it surely isn’t going to matter. Isn’t it funny, though, how just knowing that I have taken action and done something to help makes a huge difference?
***I went with my mom, my grandma, and one of my sisters to see a small production of “Hello, Dolly” last Saturday night. I hadn’t wanted to go and tried to manufacture all these reasons why I couldn’t but of course that was just me being weird. It was a good producti0n; there were two men who totally MADE the show, and at several points my sister and I were both laughing so hard that we were crying. Unfortunately, no one else in the theater thought it was quite as funny, and of course we were sitting right in the middle of the playhouse so everyone could see us, but we decided that we just have a better sense of humor than most.
All right, if I happen to have had anyone stop by (because of the blog issues, not because I have no readers, right? RIGHT?), you can go back and read the prior two posts I wrote, and THEN go check out the Friday Fragments over at Mrs.4444’s place. Play along-it’s rather fun!